Jan 12, 2008

I am taking some time tonight to post from my husbands work laptop as we no
longer have internet access or cable ( ooh we are growing over here! ;)
I still won't be posting much for awhile but I will be stopping into your
blogs as I can because I love hearing about How God is sustaining all of you :)...
I thank God for the peace He gives over the believer, that I can trust in Him to do what only He can do. That I can live by grace and not by my works. Whenever I decide to completely trust Him, He stills and quiets my mind and my heart in the way only He can do. A lot of hard things have come up over the past month... deep emotional
dissapointments, financial hardship, deep fear for my husbands welfare and safety
as he has been tackling two full-time jobs since the end of November, and as I have witnessed him going from one shift into another on 3 or 4 hours of sleep. Add to that the physical and mental exhaustion of being suddenly thrust into the role of a single-mom for 3 (child-care wise) and that would sum up December for us.
I got thrown off by emotions at first, awakening at night from deeep sleep to Grace's cries and then finding myself awake for 30 minutes or more, thinking about those things and turning them over and over in my mind. Then I started bringing my Bible upstairs to bed with me again and reading the Psalms as I did a few years ago when my husband and I were making some hard choices,mainly for me to quit working outside of home and for me to home school. All this to say, the lighthouse of God'sword stayed bright and solid on the rock as I tossed my way back to Him over the waves of emotion. He always quiets my soul at the foot of the cross. I still don't know all the answers about what is going to happen with this or that, but quiet I become as He shows me again and again,that it is all in His hands. I love this scripture:
"The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer!" Amen!!
(Psalms 18:2) Love in Christ to you all as you also live out your lives under God's grace, in whatever circumstances you find yourself in. All of ours different, and yet all under His grace. Amazing! XO'S <3

10 comments:

teresa said...

Hi, Iam glad I finally found you. I have been looking for several hrs. I think we may be related, my mother was Emma Jean Cundiff. If you are related would you e-mail me or have someone-else e-mail me.You and your family are in my prayers. God will take care of all things.

staceyhoff said...

Hi Teresa, your mother's name does not ring a bell with me but we know that if it is God's will you will find more of your family. Feel free to visit here anytime. And Thank You for your kindness to include us in your prayers. You are right; God will take care of all things. Hugs, Stacey

Danielle said...

Stacey-
praying for you!!!Mothering is such hard work, and even harder when our husbands are so busy providing for us. God has a good and perfect plan in all this.
Danielle

Linda said...

Stacey - you and Al are so loved by our family! I'll be lifting you guys up in prayer. Love you - Linda

Laura said...

Thanks for stopping by and leaving a comment today! Laura

Heart 4 My Home said...

I just love your blog(s). What an inspiration! I am so glad that you stopped by my blog, which led me to your site. I look forward to reading your previous posts.

Be blessed and have a wonderfully, terrific day!

~Nichole

Heather said...

Praying for you!! I can't imagine your exhaustion right now!

Rachel said...

In your sturggle you encouraged me just now. I was just reading in Psalms, seeking some wisdom in the middle of feeling like it is all out of my control and going to pieces. Thankfully the first is true but not the second. Psalm 42:8 - Throughout each day the Lord pours His unfailing love upon me, and through each night I sing his songs; praying to the God who gives me life. I miss you and will be praying with you that you will have peace and not be consumed by all the things that can swirl around in our thoughts.

Grafted Branch said...

just droppin' by to say, "hi!"

Heather said...

Just seein how you are doin :)